My personal motivation to you
It has been on my mind recently that I believe God is calling me into missions. I don't know where, how, when, with who, or even why; but I know that God wants me to tell others about what He has done for me and what He can do for others who are broken and lost like I once was. I have a heart for those who are slaves to sin; I know the cure and don't think as a Christian I should keep that to myself.
I have been on three mission trips outside of the United States in the past, and it each time this question would pop into my head: "What about America; where are the missions here?"
I have a burden on my heart for unsaved in America. I've heard teachers and preachers go on and on about how corrupt America has become and where America started. I hear them say how America is on a downfall. I find myself always asking this question in my head, "Okay, instead of talking about how awful our homeland is, what are we doing about it?"
I understand we as Christians need to talk about these things, but I don't understand why I don't see movement. Where is the action taking place? I've started to learn the truth to this in my life: if I don't see a change and I want one, I should make it myself. That's what I feel God is calling me to do! I want to be that change.
13 For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
14 How then shall they call on him in whom they have not believed? and how shall they believe in him of whom they have not heard? and how shall they hear without a preacher?
15 And how shall they preach, except they be sent? as it is written, How beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace, and bring glad tidings of good things!
I feel compassion on America because it is true that it is falling. It is becoming darker and darker. There is no one man in the nation to blame; the only blame is that we live in a sin-cursed world. Our culture is becoming so polluted at every moment of the day. You can't even check out of a store without seeing a magazine that causes immortal thoughts or seeing candy and becoming a glutton. You can't flip through five channels without coveting what celebrities have or how they live. You can't watch a movie today that doesn't try to justify that murder and violence is "okay" or that because this scene is quick it's "okay" for teens to watch.
1 Peter 5:8(KJV)
8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:
What has our world come to? How far are we going to allow America to corrupt our minds? I find myself justifying things saying why they are "okay." I soon after realize how stupid I was to think that something is not ungodly and contradictory to the Bible. I can see the spiritual war becoming more of a reality in my life as I open my eyes. The issue is that I see a need for revival but no one filling the need.
I am not writing this to judge or point a finger at anyone; I am just trying to make a point. My point is this: have you ever been in denial of God's will? It doesn't have to be missions at all; that's just personally where I have been convicted. For so long I have pushed the thought of missions out of my mind. I worry and deny how it could happen. I ask, "God, how can this work? How can I do this? Are you sure?" Is that you too?
27 And Jesus looking upon them saith, With men it is impossible, but not with God: for with God all things are possible.
Maybe this is you. You deny God's purpose and plan that He has for you. You feel convicted or a burden and see a need, but you push the thought aside because you are afraid. Why? Why are we so afraid of the future? What is the true fear? Do I fear missions because I don't think God can do it? Do I deny missions because I want to live a "normal American's life?" Do I fear leaving my comfort zone?
Are we underestimating the power of our God?!
I mean think about it. It can be large or small, but we all deny God's purpose or plan in our lives in one way, shape, or form at some point of life. Maybe you do it daily. Maybe you denied it years ago. Maybe you feel the conviction, but you are too afraid to move.
Maybe you deny God's reasoning. You know something is sin, but you still do it because "God takes all the fun away." I've been there, done that, and am embarrassed to know that as a Christian I can still fool myself. I write and tell others at my Bible study how wrong and stupid sin is, yet am turning around, becoming a hypocrite, and doing it myself. I can't even accept my own advice sometimes. Anyone else, or am I alone on this one too?
Do you realize how ignorant we Christians can be? (Remember I am not trying to point fingers. This includes me.) We say we trust in an all-powerful God, yet we still doubt Him and try to do things our own way. I mean how stupid can I be? If I know God is calling me to do something, whether it is in my idea of life or not, I need to be willing to go with all confidence in God, trusting He will direct my way. I need to have a positive attitude and be thankful He is putting direction in my life. We take His prodding of conviction in our lives so for granted; without Him being a guide where would I be?
5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
7 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil.
This whole post sounds a lot like a pity party on doubt, or as if I were trying to say ALL Christians do this. I am not trying to come off in a way that makes you feel worse about your position in life, but don't be convicted and not move like I have in my past and still struggle with today! My pastor, Bill Schneider, says, "If you read the Bible and you don't feel like you've wrestled with God, you're reading it wrong. Read it again!"
The truth to this quote is that we are not perfect; so a book that describes our imperfections should not always leave us with butterflies in our belly (not saying that's a bad feeling sometimes). Instead, we should be coming out black and blue. Let the word of God make you feel broken and realize how much you need to change, how much you need to turn around, and how much you need Christ.
I will close with this thought: is there any area in your life that you are denying God's will? Do you have denial in His guidance. I would not use the the cliche "Just let go and let God," but, instead, pray and move. Pray for His guidance and start doing something. You can't expect God to use or direct you unless you get up. Don't sit back and wait on God; get up and ask God to lead. Push your denial and worry to the wayside, and replace it with confidence in His direction.
I haven't posted in awhile (I plan on getting back into it) because I've been very busy as my Senior year is ending. Today I wanted to share something small with you about my mom.
My relationship with my mom has never been this close in my life. I didn't use to give her the respect she deserves, we'd fight and yell back and forth, and I use to just plainly ignore her or avoid having a relationship with her altogether. At the beginning of my senior year that all changed. When God became more of a priority in my life, my relationships started to get better. I made it a point in my heart to make my relationships better with my friends, but then realized I needed to do the same with my parents.
Since the fall of last year, I don't think I've fought once with my mom. I can't remember the last time raising my voice at her or vice versa. The "I don't care" attitude that I use to carry around is gone. God has mended my relationship with my mom, and we have had some really deep conversations since then. I love my mom; I thank God for her when I remember to. She's really deserving of a thank you, a hug, and a Texas Roadhouse gift card today!
In honor of Mother's Day, I wanted to share a link on my blog. I started a guys Bible study at my house about two months ago, and it has been fantastic. Every Tuesday we get together and talk about struggles in life and how our relationship with God is. We pray for each other and things that are going on in our lives. We've been trying to focus on the topic of leadership, but we talk so much about other things we don't always get to it. Anyways, the first night we had a Bible study, I asked my mom to share her testimony with the group of guys. I recorded it so I could one day share it with others. I hope you enjoy. God bless!
BTW: It's a little noisy in the background because people were eating, but it is well worth listening to.
MY MOMS TESTIMONY: click here
This post is more about me personally and what I learned this past week on my senior trip then a motivational post, but I will still include some encouragement. (By the way, this is my class and I'm the one with the bag on my face.)
The past week I had two guest bloggers on my blog because I went away on my senior trip. It was exciting when it was finally here mostly because it means the end of my high school career is just around the corner. I have gone to a Christian school all my life, and I am very thankful for the influence it has had upon me. Yes, it has had its ups and downs (there are A LOT of rules that I think are dumb, but that's okay because I still love my school), but I thank God for the provision of money for my parents to send me to a school that is founded on His truth.
Going to a Christian school means a Christian senior trip. At first I wasn't so thrilled about this idea, but it ended up being one of the best trips I have ever gone on. It started off with a sleepy twelve hour car ride to Ohio. I only have ten classmates (I know, small senior class), and we divided up between two vans. My van was either sleeping or laughing the whole time. This trip really unified us; I found things out about my friends I never knew. Relationships really grew. I will forever be thankful for the friendships that were brought to life on this adventure.
I think most of my class would agree that the Beast is a fantastic roller coaster! I think it is the longest wooden coaster in the United States. There are no loops, but this thing was fast, took many wild turns, and was very rickety. There are parts that you just feel as if the carts will fly right off the track... -but hey! The sketchier the better.
Sunday we went to a church by the name Williamstown Baptist Church. The speaker, Pastor Leap, preached on assurance of salvation and if one is truly saved. I love messages like this. I cannot stress it enough when salvation comes up in a conversation that salvation is not a checklist, magic words, or dos and don'ts. Salvation is the giving away of your life because He did the same for us. It's repenting and believing. It's dying to sin and being raised to life in Christ. I just love salvation messages. Even though I am saved, it's always encouraging and fills my heart with joy with how much He has done for us.
The last floor was my favorite because it pointed everything to Christ. The different pictures and texts on the walls talked about how an all loving God could send a worldwide flood and it all pointed to Christ. The ark was so interesting and made me realize how uncomprehendingly big God is. It was a great experience and super fun; I would recommend the Ark Encounter to anyone and everyone.
To wrap up the trip, my class and I went to the Wilds Christian Camp. I don't have any pictures of the Wilds because phones are taken away for this part of the trip (I know it sounds rough, but it wasn't that bad). We stayed for four nights at the camp where other Christians schools also attended that week. There were (I think) 26 schools total that attended senior week and about 240 seniors. This part of the trip was an adventure alone. We went rafting, played games like life-size Foosball, went on a zip line that was over a ravine-like river, hiked down a mountain to see a 120 foot waterfall (the hike back was the hard part), went on a 65 foot swing, made new friends with other students, and the list goes on of exciting thrills the Wilds had to offer. I can't begin to explain how amazing this trip truly was!
At the beginning of some days and end of every day, we got together in the "Moose Room" and listened to preaching of God's word. Matt Herbster was the one who usually spoke; his messages were very impacting.
They were all good, but one message was really impacting in my own life. The message was based on Romans 12:1-2 and Psalm 16:11. Matt Herbster spoke about being fully committed to God and not holding anything back. I've heard messages like this before, but Matt made it very real to me. The message really came alive and convicted my heart in upcoming decisions I will be making like college, marriage, and moving out. I feel like I have recently been making those decisions on my own; I have been praying for God to allow me to do things my way instead of praying for His will and guidance. I didn't even ask God what He wants me to do.
This first brought fear into my mind; I wondered what my future holds. Am I truly willing to do ANYTHING for God? What if God calls me into missions or to not get married? Am I willing? What if God calls me to live somewhere I don't want to, or He provides me with a job I don't like? Am I willing?
Questions and worries filled my head. I felt like I was driving a car in complete fog. I wish God would make my future at least a little clear. I realized through all these thoughts and worries that I was starting to lose faith. Yes, I am still afraid of what the future holds, but I know my God is in control. I should not lose my faith in Him. He's been with me before; He will be with me now.
The other thing that stuck out to me was when he spoke about being ready for God to answer. I may be all in for God, but without my daily devotions and keeping my relationship with God as my priority, I cannot expect Him to lead. I have to let Him speak to hear what He wants to tell me. He is my guide and I need to be willing and ready to listen if I truly want to live for Him.
Overall, this trip was probably one of the best trips of my entire life. I hope that the spiritual influence that God brought into my life serves as a reminder as I finish high-school and move on in life. I don't know what is in my future yet, but I know God has a plan.
Hi, I am Michael Jaymes. I am only 18, but I've decided to start to write. I feel a burden on my heart that I have much to say, so why not share it? I want to be heard and I want to touch the lives of others. What is a better way than through the internet? I have made my life motto, "I just want to be a blessing." It's time for me to live it out.